Returning Prayer.

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If every slit of a heartstring,
Sin and pain lead me to this moment.
That each ounce of evil that tormented my soul would consequence to this occurrence, here, now.
Kneeling before my Lord.

Then I would happily go back,
and endure them again.
I would reach out to the knives that penetrated the firmness of my back
as a mother would reach for her child.
I would inhale the sweet aroma of pain,
as a fasting man inhales the fragrance of sustenance.

I would go back again, and again.
Journeying through the road of decapitated emotions,
if they lead me back to this….

By Ali R Ilyas

Roses are Red, Sugar is Sweet.

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They say roses are red,

they say violets are blue.

But something tells me they just don’t know the truth.

The truth about the life that we abuse,

the truth about the life that we choose.

We are institutionally educated to an extent that we become

uneducated.

They say sugar is sweet,

but it makes you obese.

A disease.

Fatty reserves of sweet words, makes you blind

to the universe.

As your perception is nothing,

but a perception of your own perception.

By Ali Ilyas

A Suicidal Thought || #Suicidal Poetry 01

Dangerous Risk Adrenaline Suicide by Fear of F...

A suicidal thought consumed the mind, even though inspiration from the divine flourished. I was still malnourished.

Saddened by events that had past, but still  upon my memory they stood clear as water, reflecting into my present.

I was not suicidal yet so close i was to jump.

Its not about attention, if it’s attention i crave then i wouldn’t be sat in a room all alone with a blade to the Skin.

Trying to pierce each sin.

To let it drop from my veins and splash against the warmth on my skin, to embrace the coolness of the metal that cleanses my body and cleanses my sin.

Its not about Bravery, because honestly it takes a lot out of me to tell you that i’d rather not be.

Be alive and strive for a world that i can’t class as mine.

Feeling close to the divine, but it feels like he’s left this world of mine.

Suicide is not an option, because I know its just for a limited time, this test of mine.

By Ali Ilyas